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Post by Soff on Feb 22, 2013 6:10:03 GMT
So it's like some kind of light OCD-like-thing? Yeah... hugpile and feelings talk. I think I'll take this chance .I've been generally happy lately , but today I've been feeling anxious without knowing why. I think lack of school is finally starting to get me. And I think it has something to do with the fact my cousin came yesterday and casually asked me about trying to enter into some research team or something like that at school. Now, I LOVE what I study, but... I don't feel like I can actually do it myself. It requires interacting with people. I'm not good at that... So yeah, regular geeky person problem. I don't mind having things I'm bad at, I can live with that or I can learn to do them one way or another. But I feel really aimless, like all I do is good and fun and I love it, but I can't really do anything with it and I don't know what do I even want to do with my life or where I want to be. I mean, I really like my life as it is now, but this will last three years at most and only if I'm very lucky. And even if I am, what comes after scares me... Not because I think I won't manage. I adapt "easily", I will find something to do and I'll enjoy it, but right now I feel like I'm going nowhere, that I'm chasing things that are just bound to disappear. I'll probably feel better when I go back to school...or earlier even, but it sucks right now. Sorry about that, but I just needed to get it off my chest! The friend I usually annoy with all this stuff is not around and I'll probably feel better when she comes back. I need to... express these things. They confuse me and make me... mysteriously anxious if I can't put them into words. I'm feeling better already. In other news, action poses still hate me, but I'm happily surprised at my work these last few days. The action poses could be worse, and I even drew one or two expressions that actually look the way I wanted them to look!
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Post by Margo on Feb 22, 2013 16:24:33 GMT
yeah, really annoys me because it's textbook ocd, jeeze. I can't remember if it's covered in Psyc 1012, but if it is, you'll learn about it soon enough.
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Post by mareofnight on Feb 22, 2013 16:46:20 GMT
youtu.be/MQ5ziNOtoMUSo, um, I'm not entirely sure if the hinted dirty joke at the beginning of this video is ok for this forum or not (since I don't see forum rules anywhere). But this is what happens when Cherry grows up and gets a girlfriend.
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Post by elczenius on Feb 22, 2013 18:43:48 GMT
Hugpiiiiiiile~
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Post by Margo on Feb 22, 2013 20:38:27 GMT
@mare: Sheridan represent! lol This plays on the screens in the halls every so often; I've seen it a bunch of times. Whenever I do, though, it always makes me wonder where the line between parody and copyright infringement is drawn... Soff: It's not a bad thing to leave your comfort zone every once in a while, maybe this time, maybe sometime in the future. You can do it!
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Post by clemon on Feb 23, 2013 19:37:52 GMT
@ soff: I'd like to say don't worry too much because everyone goes through this sort of "What should I do with my life?" and "Is my path the right path for me?" or "Can I take the chance to do something better even if I don't like it as much?". Sometimes it will click, and you could try new things out. Areas of study generally have a large variety of sub-fields and maybe one of them will work out for you.
@ My silly problem: Yeah, It's pretty crazy. It's sort of because I learned statistics and if you check your alarm clock once, the probability of you not setting it correctly will go down. Naturally, if you check it a second time, the probability will go down even more. So assuming that checking one's alarm clock is independent, the probably of not setting it correctly is ~ 0. And 0 is where I need it to be, because I can't stand the thought of missing school or work because I dislike sleeping and will hence sleep in a lot if given the chance. ^^;;;;;;;
I like to think that I am a functioning human adult-ish people otherwise.
@ mare: You mean Cherry is not old enough to get a girlfriend!? But my internal shipping requires him to get with some other character by the end of his story! XD
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Post by kewdle on Feb 24, 2013 15:30:26 GMT
@mare: I loved that short, omg. It was awesome. I can totally see that happening to Cherry, but I think his girlfriend would be much less surprised, given his habit of cross-dressing.
Kew update: Took the GRE yesterday even though I was miserably sick with a cold. You know that person at the test center getting their germs all over the keyboards? Yes, that was me. I am the reason you are compulsively sanitizing your hands. Preliminary scores were 165 on verbal reasoning and 153 on quantitative reasoning. From what I understand, 165 is a hella good score, and 153 isn't anything outstanding, but meets most requirements?
The math sections were so.. augh. It wasn't even an understanding issue so much as I couldn't do the math fast enough. Aaanyway. Hopefully I can get into grad school with those. We'll see what happens with my essay score.
Edit: Still sick. Decongestant + nose blowing finally cleared out my head after... two hours. My head still feels like a balloon, though. My throat is still sore, but it doesn't feel like it's getting worse anymore. Yesterday may have been the peak of it. I hope I hope I hope.
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Post by mareofnight on Feb 24, 2013 17:18:43 GMT
clemon re:Cherry: More like... thinking that if he got a girlfriend while in school she'd already know he was a magical girl. clemon re:alarms: Hmmm... So it's one of those L-shape graphs. Would math help with this at all? Like... basically what's happening is either you value avoiding extremely small probabilities of setting your alarm wrong more highly than the time (and possibly annoyance) cost of checking it, or you're miscalculating expected utility of additional checking. I'll, umm... wait for you to say if you want me to explain this or not before I go into it in the interest of not being annoying |'D @kew: Wow, good luck!
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Post by clemon on Feb 24, 2013 21:08:59 GMT
Re: Mental thingummy Math might work, although now it's sort of math + strange luck thingy; 4 is not really special to me, except from tvtropes I learned it's associated with "death" in Japan and it's a nice square number; and the only reason I check one clock 4 times in a row instead of 8 times for the other is because the 4-times-clock requires less buttons to check. I used to check it by going through the buttons until I didn't feel like I just started checking it (so basically consequently checking an alarm clock for 4 or 5 minutes straight). I sort of understand the probabilities like:
P(alarm not working with 1 check) = 0.50 for example, so assuming checks are independent (which they probably aren't) and the probability is .5 (kind of a over estimate of effects from lousy clock + human perception), then if I checked 1 clock only once, 1 out of every 2 days I would expect it not to work. P(alarm not working with 2 checks) = 0.50^2 = 0.25 ...If I checked 1 clock twice, 1 of out of 4 days I would expect it not to work. P(2 alarms not working with with 24 and 12 checks respectively) = 0.50^24 * 0.50^12 = 1.455 * 10 * -11 = 1.455/100,000,000,000 in about 273,972,602 years both clocks will fail once. So pretty much 0 right? The 12 and 24 checks are more by habit then by math now so hmmm...maybe I should lower the number of checks, but anyhow I am interested in your take on it.
Re: Potential Cheery video Oh! Because all potential girlfriends at school know he's a magical boy already, while video-girl didn't. That makes sense.
@ Kew: Good luck! In all the (Canadian) grad schools I applied to for a masters, I just had to submit my statement of intent, resume, transcript...and...that was about it. I only applied to one american school (that never called back btw), and it didn't require a GRE, so it feels like I've dodged a bullet.
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Post by Ally on Feb 24, 2013 21:47:23 GMT
@ My silly problem: Yeah, It's pretty crazy. It's sort of because I learned statistics and if you check your alarm clock once, the probability of you not setting it correctly will go down. Naturally, if you check it a second time, the probability will go down even more. So assuming that checking one's alarm clock is independent, the probably of not setting it correctly is ~ 0. And 0 is where I need it to be, because I can't stand the thought of missing school or work because I dislike sleeping and will hence sleep in a lot if given the chance. ^^;;;;;;; I'm glad that there is statistical evidence to back up the ridiculous number of times I check my alarm clock. ;D
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Post by Margo on Feb 24, 2013 22:58:01 GMT
Holy crow, guys, I set my alarm clock every night and check it maybe twice every blue moon, and I have slept in due to setting it wrong once in two years.
Seriously Jay, don't sit around rationalizing your budding weirdness, just get actual professional help. Our undiagnosed obsessive extended relatives shouldn't be role models.
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Post by clemon on Feb 25, 2013 19:26:59 GMT
Aha! But you did set it wrong once in 2 years! Which is something I don't want happening! X....D
@ Ally Well... this statistical "evidence" is not really true given how the probabilities of each check is probably not independent. And the Probability of each check might be a lot lower than 0.5, so uh, less checks are probably ok. This is my mental thingummy, that I will get looked at after exams finish (else Margo will probably kill me).
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Post by Margo on Feb 25, 2013 22:29:15 GMT
And lo, even though I was late for class, I did not get kicked out of school, nor did my grades suffer. I will kill you remotely! With my satellite of dooooom--! Which is to say, I probably won't get home until well after your exam are over, so you've got time.
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Post by Soff on Feb 26, 2013 4:05:50 GMT
Nooou, don't kill clemon!
I once got my cousin really mad because I like to put my alarms really early and... keep sleeping, just putting them to call me in 5 minutes. I can do that for almost an hour. So that time, my cousin was in our house for a few months and she got so tired of me doing that that she left my room. I felt pretty bad about that... Still, I don't think it's that problematic? Though I guess getting help is always useful.
Thanks for the encouragement, girls! I know I'll find what to do with my life, but sometimes I feel that I'm tied to nothing and it's scary. My cousin asked meaning well, but finding that someone expects something from me is something that makes me very nervous. Oh, and I seem to be getting through my mental block for rolling forward (in aikido). I still fall kinda badly most of the times, but I seem to finally have gotten HOW it is I must do it properly. It makes me really happy! I still have to practice a lot to actually stop being blocked, but I feel like I got the most important part.
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Post by mareofnight on Feb 27, 2013 4:52:58 GMT
Arg. Sorry I'm so slow to get back to you about the math, Clemon. I keep planning to write up the post and then being too tired by the time I get to it. But some day! ...hopefully tomorrow or Thursdayish.
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Post by Tea on Feb 28, 2013 12:12:12 GMT
I set my alarm to remind me to do things I know I'm going to forget, then I forget to set my alarm.
The living room was invaded by cardboard boxes recently, we've thrown several of them away now and the cats aren't happy about it.
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Post by X'o'Lore on Feb 28, 2013 19:32:48 GMT
I want to say somebody here had a February 29th birthday and it is the 28th today and the 1st tomorrow, so I feel I should offer happy birthday wishes.
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Post by Soff on Mar 1, 2013 5:10:42 GMT
Oh, that's right! Happy Birthday, Kew !
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Post by Ally on Mar 1, 2013 9:05:40 GMT
Happy invisible birthday!
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Post by Emily on Mar 2, 2013 20:31:30 GMT
happy secret birthday Kew!
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